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Three months ago today, our fourth baby was born. We couldn't wait, a little nervous, but we were excited just the same. I had tried to convince everyone including myself this baby would be fine, but my heart was not so convinced. I played it off as being paranoid. We were just hoping this little guy would come out kicking and screaming. Instead he came out purple and not breathing. Lenn and I were crushed. The cord was wrapped tightly around his neck and we again hoped and prayed that was all that was wrong and that he would pull through. That of course was not the case and he was quickly taken to the NICU to be placed on C-PAP.
Although this was not new to Lenn and I, we were still stunned and in shock. We so badly wanted a healthy baby to bring home in a day or two. We did not get what we wanted but in some ways we got much more than we could have ever expected. These special little spirits come with indescribable blessings, at the same time they come with an indescribable heartache.
Landry Gale was such a strong little soul. He came with a divine purpose and plan and accomplished his mission with great determination. He was a fighter! He was such a great example to me and I will forever be grateful for that.
He knew he was supposed to come to our home and then return to his Heavenly Father. When he was born nobody would have guessed that he would be home in eight days. He went from C-PAP and a feeding tube on day one to a little oxygen and drinking a bottle in four days. He knew what he had to do and he did it.
We tried to cherish every moment. Even the sleepless night were treasured, and for me that is huge. I usually just pray silently that they will go back to sleep after making some noise. This time was different and perhaps deep inside I knew our time with him would be very short.
Even though my heart hurts more than it ever has I would not trade Landry or these experiences for anything.
