Monday, August 10, 2015

Not ready to hurt again....one month

One month ago tonight I spoke these words to Owen for the last time, "goodbye little buddy, we'll be right back" as we headed out to do chores for the night. Oh how I wish I could say those words again as I touched his little cheeks!
This month has been good, it's been hard and it's been fast. I feel like we've stayed so busy that we haven't let it sink in that our little Owen is really gone! Today it sank a little deeper and it hurts. I think I've put up a shield because I am NOT ready to hurt this bad again. I don't think anyone is ever ready.
This morning I got a call from a company asking if Owen needed more supplies....unfortunately not. The night of his viewing we came home to his shipment of diapers. The day of his funeral I got the package of leg warmers I had ordered to get ready for the upcoming football season. I know there are hard days yet to come but I also know there will also be great days! 
I fought tears all day today, because I don't like crying. Tonight we went to get a part and stopped at the cemetery. It happened to be 8:30, exactly one month ago. Lenn turned around to see an elephant in the clouds. It didn't stay long but we saw it and it was perfect! A minute later there was another bigger elephant. I know there will be many tender mercies and I will forever be grateful for each one of them.

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  1. You have been in my prayers. I just read thru a message you sent me when we lost our baby beech in 2009. You said he was not only perfect on earth but he's perfect now and he is doing a much greater work on the other side for our Heavenly Father. I can see the lives that your Owen touched and can't even imagine the work he has to do now. I'm sure he is a constant angel watching over your family. You will continue to be in my prayers.

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