Just thinking

Just thinking of this cute little guy. It is hard not to, even with a full house and plenty to do.
Last Tuesday was 5 months since he returned to his Heavenly Father and it was actually a great day. I was nervous but it turned out wonderful. Our good friend, Vonda, came to watch Owen. Lenn and I went to the temple for the first time TOGETHER since before Owen was born. It could not have been a better day. We didn't plan it for the 21st, it just so happened that that was a good day for us and Vonda. I am so glad we took the opportunity.

Now... to make it through the what would be Landry's 6 month birthday. I hope to make it good for Landry's sake. I have something in mind, I will just have to see if we can pull it off. I will keep you posted.

I have had a feeling I should post the things that have helped me make it this far through this trial.

1. My testimony of my Savior and the plan of salvation. It has given me something to look forward to and try to grasp a greater knowledge of.
2. A great husband and 3 other children to take care of.
3. A pen and paper. This has been huge for me.
4. Having Owen still here with us. I feel like I still have a little piece of Landry with Owen here.
5. Reading books on the loss of child. 'Too precious for Earth', by Amy C. Maddocks, 'For they shall be Comforted', by Camille Call Whiting, 'Angel Children: Doctrinal Perspectives on the salvation of little children', by Mary V. Hill, and 'Joy Cometh in the Morning', by Fran C. Hafen. They are all good and it is nice to know that others have gone through this and are making it. For some reason that brings me strength to know I can get through this too.
6. Listening to good music, even when it makes me cry.
7. And of course I cannot forget all of you. I could not get through this without you. The calls, emails, notes, poems, quotes, gifts and all you love and prayers. (I have received some gifts and they have been so heart felt and mean a lot to me. A picture frame with a great quote, a CD, and books.) Thank you!
8. The last but not least are two gifts I have received. They are very dear to my heart. One was two charm necklaces with pictures of Landry. I wear one of them everywhere. I feel so close to Landry when I wear it, like he is with me where ever I go. The other is a bracelet from a great friend with two charms; one is a baby blocks charm and the other is a train. I look at the two cute charms and imagine Landry playing with them. I now wear it everywhere too. I love them both. THANK YOU!