Landry's Birthday

I have put this post off for various reasons but I have already forgotten some of the feelings that I had so I figured I better post. I am sure I was pretty miserable to live with for a least 6 weeks before this day came. I didn't know what to do, or how to act or feel. I was in a state of confusion to best describe it. I wanted to do something big to honor Landry, but time and creativity were not on my side. I wanted to do something as a family, but of course sick season is still huge. Owen had not been doing great so it was really hard to plan ANYTHING. We decided to keep it low key and see what the day would bring. Bentley and Abby both had things at school that they didn't want to miss. (I think that was a great sign that they are doing okay through all this.) Lenn and I took Owen and went to lunch, came home and got Bentley and Abby and then headed to the cemetery.

Owen fell asleep, as usual, right before we got there. Bentley and Abby sent balloons and we left a little monkey. We had other things ordered but they came the day after. After our visit there we came home to find that someone had come and left a nice treat and a cute decoration. We are surrounded by such loving friends.I wouldn't feel right if I didn't make a cake for this special day. The cake topper was Bentley's when he turned one. I added a little dragonfly to his foot since dragonflies are now a great reminder of Landry. We got to end the day with this beautiful sunset. I know Landry was with us to celebrate his birthday. It wasn't has emotional as I had expected but we did keep ourselves busy. I think the anticipation of the day was so much worse than the actual day. Our little angel would be one. I still can't fathom the whole idea of it being over a year ago. I know he is busy doing a great work. I also know that he watches over us. I am grateful for my little angel but oh how I miss him in my arms.